Kufur.
It finally happened.
Someone from my family had found this blog. A family member, i dunno who found it first. But by this time, Umie could have dug up all the archive.
Well dear Umie,
Dear Abang, dear Siti, dear Zaid, dear Nabila, dear my family member;
I appreciate the concern that you guys have about me mengingkari suruhan tuhan di bulan ramadhan, bulan di mana Al-Quran diwahyukan di gua Hira’. “Iqra, bismirabbikallazi halaq,”And me doing all the kemungkaran di bumi Allah ini.
Surah Al-Baqarah ada menyebut, puasa itu membina taqwa. Maka Ittaqullah, bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah.
Well, i don’t know how to say this the easy way, but if there’s one thing you guys should have known years ago, there’s one surah that really explains everything.
Al-Kafirun.
I’ve done the greatest sin; kufur. The only sin that God has clearly said to never will forgive. I’ve denied the holy messenger and his God.
For many years, i never really told anyone. Not openly like this.
It is because i know, everyone knows that under malaysian constitution, being born malay and automatically registered as a muslim, i’ll forever be a muslim. Forever. Even when i don’t wanna be a muslim anymore.
By heart, i’m not a muslim. By constitution, i sense some counseling coming.
With every counseling that i might face later on, the only goal they have is just one – Kembali ke jalan yang benar, sesungguhnya Allah itu maha pengampun, maha mengasihini. Taubat nasuha.
But do you realize one thing? That Allah and Muhammad, is your belief and not mine.
“Ashadualla illa ha illallah, wa ashhaduanna muhammadar rasullah”. Tiada tuhan yang disembah melaikan Allah, dan Nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah.
I know the syahadah, i do understand the meaning, but i just i don’t believe in Allah, i don’t believe in Muhammad.
I am not a believer. Al-Quran says i’ll be damned in hell for eternity.
I was born muslim, but now i want my right to not become one.
But do i have the right?
Lina Joy doesn’t have the right. No one who was born malay in this country i know has that right. But because Lina Joy is now a kafir, we shall either hate her for she is misguided OR sympathize her for siksaan tuhan itu amatlah memedihkan. Nabi Muhammad menangis hampir setiap malam mendoakan umatnya diselamatkan, bukan?
“La haula wala ku wata illah billah, hil ali il azim.”
Bertaubatlah, bertaubatlah, bertaubatlah kamu wahai Firdauz. Masya Allah.
Ini bulan Ramadhan, maka tulisan ini tidak mungkin hasil hasutan dari syaitan. Tidak mungkin berbentuk nafsu, kerana nafsu itu hanyalah keinginan. Nafsu tuhan lontar dalam neraka beribu tahunnya. Degil. Tidak mahu mengaku bahawa ia ciptaan tuhan. Nafsu itu degil. “Siapa kamu?” Setelah berkali direjam ke nereka, setelah beribu tahunnya dibakar dalam api, barulah nafsu akhirnya tunduk menjawab. “Aku, ciptaanmu ya Allah” Jadi aku menulis mengkikut nafsu? Aku syaitan? Aku tak percaya.
Iya, ini bulan kelahiran. Aku dilahirkan 2 Ramadhan 1400, 15 July 1980. Tapi kemulian Ramadhan itu bukan kepercayaan aku. Bulan dikurungnya syaitan di neraka. Tiada fakta yang menunjukkan kurangnya kadar jenayah, kurangnya kemungkaran di muka bumi ini di bulan Ramadhan. Tidak ada fakta sains yang mengatakan puasa itu menyihatkan badan (melainkan menahan makan untuk tempoh waktu yang singkat tetapi meminum air yang banyak untuk membantu proses detox).
Minum air, puasa tidak boleh minum air kecuali setelah tiba waktu berbuka. How do you flush the toxic waste out from your system then? I’ve seen so many people become exhausted and tired and being so much less productive during Ramadhan. That is a miracle?
No devout muslim i know is so healthy that he/she wins The Olympic every time. Those who excel in sports, physically fit, are those people who eat pork since they were born. For generations. And they are not the bad people yang melakukan kerosakan di buka bumi tuhan.
No scientific evidence to support pork when consumed, it blinds your heart and turns you evil.
After about 1430 years of puasa, sembahyang dan zikir, have the muslims achieved great health? Have the muslims got slimmer chances of getting any disease? They don’t eat pork, they don’t drink alcohol, they have been praying to God for over 1430 years, They have to be the greatest nation!
But they are not.
Fakta puasa secara islamnya, membina taqwa. Itu sahaja. Scientifically, there are no miracles behind puasa.
Sama juga miracle nya semasa tsunami. Ingat tak semua banggunan hancur kecuali Masjid di tengah Surabaya? What if you google yourself and you see ade patung budha terselamat di Sri Lanka, berhala-berhala besar yang terselamat merata dunia, dan chapel kecil yang juga terselamat. Yang lain itu kebetulan? Masjid yang selamat itu kuasa tuhan?
Every religion has claimed to have got miracles and is protected by divine intervention. You just need to open your eyes and stop being biased to only one religion. Then you’ll see that you gotta have faith to believe in such miracles or else are explainable.
Faith. Dosa, pahala, syurga, neraka itu semua memerlukan kepercayaan, dan kepercayaan itu kamu yang punya. Kenapa perlu aku dipaksa?
Kerana Islam itu benar. Kerana mati itu benar. Kerana Al-Quran itu benar. Tuhan mewahyukan Al Quran melalui malaikat Jibrail kepada Nabi Muhammad S.A.W untuk seluruh umut dunia. Umat akhir zaman.
Dan Al-Quran itu, penunjuk segala jalan. Mukjizat nabi yang paling besar.
Siapa tuhan kamu? Dan dipukul di dalam kubur.
Di padang masyar akan di hisab amalnya, maka berceritalah angota badan tentang dosanya di muka bumi. Tangan ini membawa botol arak. Melakukan mungkar. Hati ini hitam. Tercela dengan zat dari daging yang haram dan kemudian akan dibakar selamanya di neraka.
Meniti di titian siratul mustaqim yang lebarnya 7 kali nipisnya dari rambut. Jatuh kedalam api yang beribu kali lebih panas dari api di bumi.
What’s with the threatening? Does God fear the Kafir that He has to send thousands of messengers to remind us of His wrath.
Now God has feelings too? Fear, wrath, and loathing the kafir too? I thought God is supposed to not have any feeling. Who is this God, why does He act all emotional? Yang disayang, diletaknya di syurga, hebat. Yang di benci, di campak ke nereka, sengsara.
Tuhan ade perasaan sayang dan benci? Tuhan berperasaan? Dia rasa ape aku tulis entri mungkar macam ini, marah?
Jadi tuhan itu sifatnya panas baran? Mengugut? Menjanjikan neraka, menjadikan siksaan yang maha binasa untuk mereka yang memilih untuk tidak percaya? Kenapa mengugut? Kenapa tuhan marah? Kerana aku melawan?
Aku tidak melawan untuk menjatuhkan. Aku melawan kercayaan yang bentuknya peribadi. Untuk diri sendiri. Tak pernah aku menghasut sesiapa, tak pernah pula aku lupa untuk menghormati mereka yang percaya. Do you know that until today i still pay Zakat because i believe in charity? That i still recite Quran because i think it sounds so poetic and is beautiful? That i always provide sejadah dan menunjukkan kiblat pada mereka yang datang kerumah? Supaya mereka boleh sembahyang dan melakukan ape yang mereka percaya, dengan tenang. And i never been biased and always treat religious people with equal respect. Ask around, and you’ll hear me doing nothing but trying to co-exist and establishing some mutual respect. Some mutual understanding.
If Umie wants to perform Hajj, and if i have to money, do you think i won’t give it to her? I’ll be supportive to every of my family member who wants to practice whatever thing they want to practice. I have always been supportive to the point if i ever get married, if i ever have children, i’ll send them to religious study if that what they want.
Religion needs faith. Everyone has the right to have faith. But where is my right to not practice Islam because i don’t believe in it?
By not believing Islam and questioning it is not indication of hati buta, hati hitam, hati busuk dan macam-macam lagi kecelaan yang perlu mereka lontar. Hati ade roh, ade mata, ade jiwa, hati itu hidup. Makannannya zikir dan amal mulia. What makes you think i have stopped doing zikir kepada Allah? What if i recite Quran in front of you with all the correct tajwid and i could teach some people the tajwid i know so they do less mistake in reciting Quran. Does that make you believe that i don’t have honesty, yang hati aku hitam pekat berbanding mereka yang menentang suruhan Allah kerana itu cool dan rebellious. Boleh minum arak sebab kubur lain lain?
Rebellious act ain’t cool, if you gotta ask. It’s a sign of being lost doing the mungkar but believing Allah at the same time. If you need an advice, get back to the correct teaching if Islam is still strong deep in your heart. Do what you must, bersihkan jiwa and i’ll be supportive by all means.
The size of the universe is infinite. It’s so damn bloody huge. Berjuta tahun cahaya. Berjuta galaksi. Galaksi bima sakti sahaja ade berjuta bintang. Salah satu bintang, matahari. Salah satu dari planetnya, bumi. Ade manuasia atas, ade beribu agama, hindu antara yang paling tua, Islam agama yang paling muda, tapi yang betul itu Islam? And if there are aliens out there, no where we could reach, do you think the aliens are muslims?
I am not a believer. Don’t ask me to believe in things that you do.
The thing that you believe in, is meant ONLY to you.
“Lakum di nukum waliyiddin”.
Untuk kamu agamamu, untuk aku agamaku.
=)
Could this be what was on your mind…?
Real_cranium : thanks bro. i know u’d understand me
Farah : One of the many reasons, yes. Hey, i actually agak malu if u ever baca this post. It is because i have high respect for you. You one of those muslims i know who will never hate other people’s religion. And i malu not because of my personal choice. I malu because i was born muslim, sent to religious school, understand Islam but denying it, and i don’t want this post to sound offensive to you. If it is indeed a tad offensive, you forgive me yeah.
The concept of organized religion has yet to give any impact on me. I do believe in God, Heaven and Hell and who knows maybe someday, I might just repent and follow the way of Islam but for now, I don’t think so. I believe that everyone akan ada chance untuk bertaubat. It just depends on WHEN the light shines through the heart.
We are free to believe in anything we want. because you know, if you think about it, if pioneers in Islam said other religions are false religions, what makes Islam the “right one”? These kind of questions… only in this day and age we’re able to question because the way we think is way different.
I’d like to think of myself as free-spirited. I believe in God, Heaven, Hell and the afterlife. I know that eventually I will have to pay for the wrong I have committed. But for now, I’ll just concentrate on living and making through the day without a scratch. And I think you should too.
Hang in there.
Hi lolina
Hey thanks for your long comment, i appreciate it. Organized religion yang kalau rakyatnya malas berpuasa, boleh kena tangkap? Yang organized begitukah? Yang ahli sunnah wal jamaahnya mengeluarkan fatwa orang A dan B halal dibunuh kerana mereka kufur?
Dan mereka melaungkan nama tuhan dalam menegakkan ape yang mereka panggil kebenaran?
Kebenaran itu kepercayaan mereka. Jangan dipaksa kepada aku.
Truth is, i never really care to write an offensive post like this. But when ur own mother pushes you to believe in what you don’t, i think u just snap!
yeah well when family is involved, I guess it takes a whole different turn.
From the day we were conceived, our parents have guided us following respective religions. truth to be told, I was never raised in a complete Islamic environment. All my parents did was raise me and my three sisters to be good, sensible and responsible people. My father wasn’t the most religious of men. He is 61 now, he repent at 50.
Like Chuck Palahniuk wrote in Fight Club: “Our fathers are models of God. If our fathers bailed on us, what does that tell you about God?” In my case, my father didn’t bail on me, he just wasn’t the perfect God model.
To me, religion IS important. It gives you something to hold onto. Something to believe in. But I also believe that organized religion (Islam, Christianity, Jewish, etc) has been watered down too much throughout the years and people claiming to be “experts” in the field have manipulated the true message, value and beauty of religion.
Though now my father tells me to pray and pray, the most important thing is that I grow up to be a responsible adult. I know my Islam, I still ngaku diri sebagai Islam. I do believe Islam is a good lifestyle. But I’d wanna take my time understanding it before I can fully practice it, don’t you agree?
Be rest assured, I’m the least of your worries dear for I am in no place to judge. I believe, in all honesty that everyone should get to decide what takes precedence in their life – provided they have solid reasoning and the maturity laced around it.
I feel that whenever religion is brought up, normally sensible people lose their minds. It’s just a matter of perspective really, and perspective is as incomprehensible as art. Yes, there are ground rules in Islam but what goes beyond the rules are the people’s understanding and acceptance of it (which is subjective) that makes all the difference. At least that’s the way I see it.
I respect your decision.
I don’t know what helps but for what it’s worth, I’m around.
lolina: I LOVE FIGHHHTT CLUB <3..wtf so random
firdy: haha. i think fugz should print this out and stick it on his mothers forehead or something. U KNOW AH WHAT DRAMA WE HAVING NOW. ish. samn dulan can die.
but kudos to you. lol damn funny i was just saying some of the things u’ve said to a christian friend of mine and her reply to everything i say damn redundant.
btw we gonna come disturb soon. video time. ohohoh
Lolina : As i always say this to my friends. “Religion is a need, it’s a necessity, it has its function for those who need it. Religion fulfills these needs. But for those who don’t need religious guidance, it is our duty to respect those who choose to be guided by any doctrine,”
I have never failed to understand and to respect other people’s belief.
Although in a way, that contradicts, a lil bit, to have posted this entry.
That’s because this entry is meant for my family. It’s a mean of communication between my family and me when i find it difficult to explain to them everything over the phone.
This entry shows my frustration, it is not an Islam bashing entry.
and thank you lolina. i really-really appreciate your comment. And i do agree with you that religion is indeed important (for those who need it).
Farah : Thank you. Remember when i said we shouldn’t go into Esprit Cafe because they serve non-halal food/drink/
It is because i want all my muslim friends to be comfortable when they are with me.
I have been nothing but respecting muslims, haven’t i?
How i wish Umie come to this entry, read it herself, and accept me like you guys could.
and to stop asking me from taubat.
I don’t want to taubat. I just don’t believe in siksaan tuhan. I am not a believer. Why must Umie keeps on giving me pressure to taubat?
….*blink2*
haha I’ve never seen this entry as a Muslim-bashing entry. In fact, I’m actually very against any form of bashing on other religions as well. everyone’s got their beliefs and convictions.
and that said, you said your peace, your conviction. you shouldn’t be judged for not having faith in organized religion. a person is still a person regardless. :)
Saya tak tahu nak cakap apa.
Entri ini saya baca berkali-kali. Untuk mengelakkan saya berlaku prejudis terhadap kepercayaan kamu.
Tahniah, kerana masih mempersoalkannya. Sekurang-kurangnya, kamu masih ada kepercayaan yang boleh dipegang. Berbanding ramai lagi manusia yang tidak endah langsung dengan agama.
Cuma, diharap, jangan kamu terus berhenti mencari jawapan kepada persoalan-persoalan yang kamu lontarkan tadi. Teruskan mencari jawapan..
p/s: Firdauz, nama yang cukup indah. Salam perkenalan dari SangPelangi.
“I know the syahadah, i do understand the meaning, but i just i don’t believe in Allah, i don’t believe in Muhammad.”
saudara x percaya kat Allah tu means x percaya Alah wujud ke x percaya kandungan ajaran Islam tu sendiri?
Kalau saudara percaya akan kewujudan Tuhan yang menciptakan alam seluruhnya,seperti yang saudara sebut,dari galaksi ke planet dsb,sudah tentu saudara yakin oksigen yang saudara sedut setiap hari,seminit entah berapa kali,adalah ciptaan tuhan.
Kalau saudara x percaya kewujudan tuhan pula,saya syorkan saudara mendapatkan sumber dari orang yang berilmu,seperti Dr.Zakir Naik.Beliau adalah Doktor Perubatan.Bab babi x bagus untuk kesihatan pun ada dalam kajiannya.Kenyataan saudara babi tidak dibuktikan secara saintifik membahayakan kesihatan menunjukkan kekurangan maklumat yang saudara perolehi.Tokoh negara kita,Dr.Danial Zainal Abidin sendiri ada mengumpul kajian dari Barat!
Boleh dapatkan bukti ini dari bukunya dalam “bahan berdakwah untuk remaja moden”
Nampak dari tulisan saudara sangant educated orangya.Apakata saudara kaji lagi sampai puas hati?Kaji dan kaji?memang itu sepatutnya kerja muslim.Inherited faith is blind faith.Sememangnya nak beriman kena ada ilmu.
Kenyataan saudara berkenaan agama tertua hindu dan termuda ialah Islam juga,maaf saya katakan,saudara kurang maklumat.Kalau begitu apakah agama Nabi Adam a.s?Semua nabi membawa kalimah “Lailaha illa Allah”.Ya’ni Islam.Submit to God’s will.Cuma syariatnya(hukum agama) berbeza.
Syariat yang kita amalkan sekarang adalah syariat yang dibawa oleh Rasulullah saw.Sekiranya saudara ingin juga gunakan perkataan muda,syariat itulah muda.Islam tetap dulu,kini dan selamanya agama disisi Allah.Saya berikan contoh,andai silap minta mereka yang ada pengetahuan tolong betulkan.Semasa zaman Nabi Musa,andai najis terkena baju,tiada syariat pada masa itu basuh,tapi gunting part yang kena najis itu.Tetapi syariat yang dibawa oleh Nabi Muhammad saw pula boleh basuh.
Suka saya berikan contoh lain.Kita pandang sahaja makhluk Allah selain manusia.
Bumi dari dulu sampai sekarang,berputar pada paksinya.Patuh.Bumi(makhluk) submit to God’s will.(dengar macam kelakar,harap saudara faham maksud saya)
Epal dibaling,jatuh balik.Mematuhi hukum alam,hukum graviti.Iaitu sunnatullah.utk kes ni,epal(makhluk) submit to God’s will.
Air bila masuk peti ais yang belah bawah,tunggu lama sikit jadi beku.Itu hukum alam,sunatullah.Air(makhluk) patuh.Water submit to God’s will.
Kalau fikir-fikir,semuanya patuh kepada Penciptanya bukan?
Secara tak sedar semuanya “tunduk” kepada-Nya dalam keadaan rela mahupun terpaksa.Bila saudara makan gula,lidah saudara x boleh tipu langsung utk beri isyarat manis juga kepada otak.Makan gula otak akan beri isyarat manis juga.Lidah saudara sendiri(makhluk)submit to God’s will.
Andai sekarang saudara cuba tahan nafas,x nak sedut oksigen,lama-lama x boleh juga,mesti kena sedut,sebab hukum alam,sunatullah,nak terus hidup perlukan oksigen.Paru-Paru saudara(makhluk)submit to God’s will.
Tapi,kalau HATI sendiri menolak akan perlunya kepada penciptanya sendiri ,apa boleh buat?Ini soal HATI.Soal HATI.
Saya syor dikesempatan yang ada ni,sebelum ditakdirkan mati,selami Islam secara lembut.
Pergi PERKIM ke.
Dunia ni nampak sangat x adil,HANYA bila x percayakan akhirat dan Tuhan.Di sana nantilah,sebarang kezaliman,akan diadili seadil-adilnya.
Teruskan perjuangan saudara.Teruskanlah mencari.Cari dan cari sampai puas hati.Ok?
http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=fOl–cdJdU0&feature=related
sama2 hayati lagu ni bro
ya Allah … mengucap nak ..
“The road towards truth and enlightment are equally excruciating and painful”
Ginny : come la, come la, disturb me.. hehehhe. i don’t mind one =P
yukiD : blink2 too.
Lolina : thank you. i appreciate ur understanding, a lot!
Sang Pelangi : You sound like one of those muslims i have high respect for. Keep practicing in what you believe in. I always admire a good muslim like you. One who is so careful not to hurt other people’s beliefs. Thanks, i like my name too. I thank my mother for that. Salam perkenalan dari saya juga.
Prihatin : I’ve read Dr. Zakir Naik since 2004. I’m no newbie when it comes to Dr. Zakir Naik, Al Quran & Science, and comparative religion. I’ve read all the rebuttals too. Have you read the rebuttals to his claims? Look, i do understand a muslim like you. One who is concern about his/her religion. One who loves his brothers and sisters to the point he/she doesn’t want his/her friends to be misguided. That is your right to be concern of what you believe in. But trust me when i’m say i’m no newbie to scientific claims by quoting Al Quran, comparative religion and all those stuff. I’ve read both sides of the claims and the rebuttals too. Thank you for your comment. I really appreciate it a lot. If you like Dr. Zakir Naik, i’d suggest you to read the rebuttals to his claims too.
Wan Mohd. Kamal : Thanks for your concern.
Diese : Well, hello there =)
p/s: Let’s not turn this entry into a circus. This is entry is very personal to me, and it is written to my family.
this is why i stop writing personal stuff via http://www.got no freedom.i also got busted by a family member.i choose to pretend,as a damage control.
tapi sampai bila?kan?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GqIhYxT__c
aku pernah diberi pilihan memilih antara kedua orang tua kerana fahaman yang berbeza.i’ve gone tru this religion thingy before.paksaan cuma akan mematahkan tulang rusuk yang bengkok.
things come in different form.cuma kena faham.
i hope your umi will understand.that even tho you choose not to raise the same belief as her,you are still her son.
kun fa ya kun
fielding : I actually can understand your frustration as it happens to myself as well. I won’t take out your youtube link, but next time, i’d appreciate if you guys don’t post links into the comments.
Bukan aku tak suka links, suka. But i don’t want to turn any of my entries jadik circus.
Some more, i kinda like some devout muslim. Like Sang Pelangi, i’m starting to like his blog already.
Because in the end, it is not love that i don’t have. What i don’t have is religious faith. What i always have is love towards those who have faith.
So together, let’s not turn this entry into a circus yeah.
We leave this entry as a personal message to my family, can?
=)
Kepercayaan kamu itu, ia hak kamu. Sesiapa pun akan marah bila hak itu diperkotak-katikkan. jadi, saya faham bagaimana perasaan bila pendirian kita dijadikan pentas circus oleh sesiapa saja.
Kesalahan murtad itu ada dua jenis tahapnya. (maaf kerana saya gunakan perkataan “kesalahan” ini, mungkin Firdauz lebih tahu kenapa perkataan itu digunakan.)
Isytihar Murtad, adalah mewar-warkan status murtad itu kepada umum, hukumannya pasti lebih berat.
Tapi, dalam kes ini, kamu menerima Islam itu bukan atas kerelaan sendiri. Islam dan Muslim adalah dua nilaian yang berbeza. Ada bezanya antara Islam Warisan, dan juga Islam Anutan. Firdauz, tak perlu bimbang, kerana Islam bukanlah agama paksaan, kan? Jawapannya cuma ada di dalam diri kamu sahaja. Cuma perlu bertanya pada diri, untuk apa kita hidup di muka bumi. Jika persoalan ini terjawab, maka terpulanglah Firdauz untuk menilainya.
Ok, tukar topic jap.
Untuk menulis sesuatu yang menyentuh sensitivi agama itu, sesuatu yang harus ditanggung risikonya.
Jika disediakan ruangan komen pula, bermakna kamu juga bersedia untuk membuat perbincangan secara terbuka dan jujur. (tapi yang baiknya, kita masih boleh mengawal keadaan)
Jadi, Firdauz harus menerimanya jika situasi ‘circus’ ini berlaku. Kita sebagai blogger, perlu bertanggungjawab ke atas apa saja yang kita tulis, bukan?
Jadi, cadangan saya, alangkah baiknya kalau entri privasi ini di’kunci’ (jika ia berenjin wordpress), dan diletakkan password. Kemudian berikan password itu kepada ibu kamu atau rakan terdekat.
Jika mahukan ia dibaca umum juga, apa kata kalau Firdauz tutupkan ruangan komen ini. Dan cuma paparkan emel Firdauz supaya pembaca boleh berinteraksi dengan kamu. (gunakan optional email, bukannya primary email)
Ia lebih wajar, supaya Firdauz lebih kenal dengan siapa Firdauz berkomunikasi. Atau mengelakkan ruangan ini jadi lebih sarkis dari sekarang.
Saya cuba untuk melihat situasi ini dari kacamata kamu, dan cuba membayangkan apa yang saya rasakan jika menjadi seperti Firdauz. Hasilnya, berupa beberapa cadangan yang saya nyatakan tadi.
Waduh-waduh….
Kok TERpanjang pula saya mengetik ni. Hihi.. Maklumlah, sambil makan kerepek, sambil menaip. Asyik mengunyah, asyik juga idea datang. Haha..
Sori ya, bro. Kalau komen ni menyesakkan ruangan yang ada. Boleh delete jika mahu. ;p
Oh ya, thanks sebab sudi menjejak di SangPelangi. Sebenarnya saya sangat berbangga, sebab ada orang kuat “Nuffnang” sudi melawat blog saya yang biasa-biasa itu. (err.. blog saya tu sesuai letak Nuffnang ke?)
Sang Pelangi : Di jepun sekarang waktu malam ya? Selamat berbuka, menjamu selera.
Isu murtad dan kufur sebenarnya telah saya dalami, dari ayat-ayat Al-Quran, Hadith, dan bertanyakan mereka yang arif dalam hal ini.
Kesimpulannya, isu kufur bagi mereka yang sudah disampaikan ajaran Islam, waras dan dewasa adalah sangat berat di sisi Islam.
Hukuman untuk mereka yang kufur agama (kufur dari segi definasinya, ada banyak jenis), tidak dijelaskan di dalam Al Quran, hanya daripada hadith-hadith yang menyebutkan hukum bunuh untuk si murtad.
Dan riwayat dari Umar Al-Khattab membolehkan dipenjarakan mereka yang murtad sehingga mereka kembali taubat (sila betulkan jika ini tersilap).
Al-Quran hanya menjelaskan hukuman neraka yang dimana si kufur ini, kekal mereka didalamnya.
The thing is with me, it’s not knowledge that i’m lacking of. I know the function of Al-Quran and why Hadith is part of Islamic teaching. Hadis sahih, hadis mudtarib,hadis mutawatir, hadis lemah. It is faith that i don’t have. Faith. I don’t have that. Knowledge, everyone has been helpful sharing what they know about Islam with me.
And i have given Islam its fair shot dengan mendalaminya sebelum menidakkanya. And i’m fully aware of azab dunia, azab akhirat dan hukuman-hukuman bentuk lain dari segi Islam.
It’s just faith, i don’t have that.
Dan tentang komen, saya tak kisah jika mereka mahu menyuarakan ape yang mereka mahu. Cuma sedikit khuatir jika ia bertukar menjadi kemarahan peribadi dari mana-mana pihak.
Nak marah-marah, boleh. Marah kan tanda sayang. Tanda concern. Cuma jangan la selalu sangat. Banyak lagi cara kita boleh tunjukkan sayang. Betul tak?
Sang pelangi, terima kasih sekali lagi saya ucapkan kerana kamu tunjuk yang kamu concern. Itu bermakna untuk saya.
Tentang nuffnang, sememangnya saya bukan orang kuat. Hanya pekerja biasa =P. Maka saya percaya, semua orang boleh letak iklan nuffnang.
Hey, selamat menjamu selera dan selamat menjalani ibadah puasa okay.
I’m so proud that you made the decision to tell your family about this. I hope one day, I’ll have the courage too. =)
Fiza, it’s not been easy i tell you. Who doesn’t love his mother?
Especially when your mother truly believes that all you need is taubat, and she cries, and she cries, and she keeps on crying. Begging you to taubat.
and then she prays, she prays, and she prays.
and then she cries again. and then she prays again.
It’s been hard. and it’s gonna be harder when raya is just around the corner.
I just want my mother to be happy, to treat her right. But it’s getting difficult if she keeps on crying because of her belief and the gravity of her belief in kufur.
Never been easy.
I just hope that one day, she’ll stop crying and just accept me, as i am.
Because to know that she cries a lot, makes me cry even more.
Never been easy for me.
I don’t think i have the strength. I feel sick in the back of my throat, chocking, nausea, perut memulas, and i just can’t focus on anything at all.
Who comforts me? Friends who understand of course.
assalamualaikum,
ila yang bagi tau post nie,
ayed tekejut gak,
kul 8:30 tadi,
malam nie ayed balik,
kul 12,
to inform,
i know this blog b4,
but baca sepintas lalu jer,
donno that u will cahange evrything,
i dont know why?
i dindt blame u,
u still my loved brother,
i love you and all the family like you do,
but,
how can this happen?
that i still wondering?
but,
harap family kita tetap akan bahagia,
donno dis raya u still ada ngan kitorang or not,
but to say i hate you,
naver,
family is number one,
u make history today,
like anwar ibrahim,
916,
but u dont change the malaysia kerajaan,
tetapi sesuatu yang mungkin lebih serius dari polotik,
anyway,
from today,
i’m,
muhammad zaid bin haris,
akan sentiasa berdoa kepada ALLAH,
agar semua akan kembali tenang,
this is my pray,
“Ya ALLAH,kau beriku satu ujian yang amat berat,
aku tahu ujianmu itu adalah tanda kau menyanyangiku,tanda kebesaranmu ya ALLAH.aku berdoa padamu ya ALLAH,tuhan sekalian alam,tunjukkan kuasaMu ya ALLAH,tunjukkan kebenaranmu ya ALLAH,aku juga hambamu yang hina,dan aku takut aku berpaling tadah padamu,berikan kami kekuatan,agar ujianmu ini satu permuaan hidup baru,agar kami sentiasa mendekatimu”
Amin ya rabbal yaa’lamin.
Firdauz :)
Some brother you have there.
mothers will always be mothers. mothers will always want their kids to be what they think what’s good for them regardless of what the kids think.