Hot Stuff.
I do not know how to start this, or even if i could start with the right words to tell the story of last night with Diana, but if i must do it with honesty, then i’d start with who Diana was, and what we had back in 2007.
Diana was her third name, the first being Tuan, and the second being a common name whom everyone referred to her as. Although i never called her Diana, i find it easier to write this story using this name.
What Diana and i had back in 2007 was nothing to even begin with. I fell in love with her. She rejected me. I moved on, or tried to move on. While trying to move on, or thought that i had moved on, she went out with almost every guy from my office, including my ex-employer, and when i found out about it, i told to my ex-employer;
“I fucking quit because you’re fucking lie to me. You encouraged me to go after Diana, you gave me reasons of why i should go after her, yet behind me, you fucking went out with her.”
My ex-employer told me boring lies such as “Oh, i only went out with her because i wanted to see if she’s good enough with you, Firdauz”. My ex-employer was a world class liar, a con man whose reputation was being extremely good with lies.
And if i have to write this story with a constant honesty, i can’t do it without telling you what my ex-employer was trying to do to Diana.
So this is me, writing with less stories to tell.
And this is me, trying to tell you how i spent dinner with Diana last night, with the wrong words to begin with.
So last night was a double-date, not in the sense that i went out with Diana and there was another couple joining us. No, not that kind of a double-date. It was a kind where i dated 2 girls on the same night. And the gap between them was only 15 minutes.
And before we reached to the final minutes of our dinner date, Diana had said :
“You’ve changed kan Firdauz. You’re such hot stuff right now,”
I took it as a joke, because hot stuff is not who i was, nor who i am, nor who i’ll ever be. I don’t belong in those groups. I belong in a much boring group where the people of my kind enjoy spending their days and weeks mingling, getting to know all kinds of people, listening to their stories and views and radical ideas sometimes, not to agree with them, but to just, listen.
I enjoy listening to people, and i had listened to every story Diana told me last night, and spoke none of my own.
All i did mostly was listening to her, even when i didn’t agree with some of the sentiments like, ‘open relationship’, ‘I’m hot stuff’. Ridiculous things, i thought. But funny, some of them.
And after the dinner date with Diana, was a delicious supper, was a sweet dessert with my Sayang, 15 minutes after Diana had left. My Sayang had asked me how the date was with Diana, i told her “It was okay, she thought that i’m hot stuff baby dia bodoh kan,” and continued, “but baby, i think you’re hot stuff,” and kissed her on the neck.
Indeed, My Sayang was hot stuff. Freaking delicious.
This is Diana.
and this is my Sayang, hot stuff.
Wow, your sayang really is hot stuff! :D
OMG.. u r awesome Firdy
wah firdy u’re world class too!
I vote for Sayang. Sayang so cool let Firdy go outside play play. So long Firdy comes home to her. Now that’s a keeper :)
Are you jealous Janah? You and Firdauz used to be quite close, no? :P
Mellissa : hahahaha, i believe she appreciates u saying that. i say thank u on her behalf ok melly =)
Myhorng : no i’m not. i damn stupid ok! =P
KY : i have no class one. i very rempit one!
Jannah Raffalli : oh my. jannah! u should have not said that. i never judged u when u did things u didn’t want to blog about, or tell others about. i’m in a relationship with Sayang, yes, i love her. you shouldn’t judge Sayang based on what she lets me do. i’ve been casually dating girls all my life, right? and you know this since thousands of years ago? doesn’t mean i still sleep around. i don’t, although yes, i used to. i was a whore, but now i’m in a relationship, am i not?
i’m trying to become a better guy, ok so i still suck at it, but i’m still learning to appreciate Sayang, ur not helping jannah.
it takes time for me to change, jannah. doesn’t mean i haven’t been loyal to Sayang, or didn’t bother to try at all. I still am loyal to her, emotionally, or even sex if you wanna know, i haven’t been doing with anyone else.
casual dating jannah, not the worst of things.
because personally, i still think casual dating is a healthy thing to do. as long as i remain faithful, no?
Godot : lol. yeah i guess. we’re close like that only. close friends i guess.
Of course I am. The love of my life is in JB and I’m stuck in Penang. And he’s the Penangite some more. It’s nice having someone to love who loves you back. Not much of a rocket science Godot ;)
that’s it jannah. enough of this thing already can?
/ Cis Jane kena marah macam budak kecik. Karma sebab asyik marah budak kat sekolah sebab misbehaving. Runs to the corner and play with herself.
*stands aside n watch* :P
anyway ur sayang is hot stuff indeed lol!
QUOTE I vote for Sayang. Sayang so cool let Firdy go outside play play. So long Firdy comes home to her. Now that’s a keeper :) DISQUOTE
Prrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttt. Red card for Ms Rafali. Don’t say lah like that. Why can’t we be happy for Firdauz?
I love it that Sayang can give my baby Firdy what I cannot… Firdy, you still can go casual dating with me kan? Wanna lunch?
Don’t call me, I call you.
when u wanna let me meet sayang! boooooooooooo
“You’ve changed kan Firdauz. You’re such hot stuff right now,”
Haih, I thought better of you that you wouldn’t quote me so terribly out of context. And I thought I was quite nice to you that night, under the circumstances. I can see that you enjoyed your literary liberty with this one. Nice one, dude. Nice one.
Jannah Raffali : =P
bryanlyt : yeaaaaahhh
Chriso : ur so gay! gay gay gay gay! but yeah, call me! =P
Gin : when ur free la i think. u always not free one! booo
the second name : teehee =P
bila nk ghey ngan aku plak?
haha! ask tock tock to gay with u. he’s so gay u know!
u’re the man bro. ;p
juz wonderin, what got u hooked up on diana in the 1st place?
aint really drop dead gorgeous. then again, beauty lies in the
eyes of the beholder.. or so they say.
shaoweii : no la, ur the man.
the unknown : =). ur not the first person who told me she ain’t gorgeous, in fact, i agree with you, she’s not gorgeous. diana is a person whom i used to think is interesting, very thoughtful — and her mind was beautiful, i used to think — but then after some time, i found her senses and judgment a tad boring. she talks (although deeply) about things that everyone knows, of common senses.
yeah, i’m being judgmental, woohoo!
but i appreciate the friendship though, and i guess she can be a decent friend.
(and that makes me a jerk for saying something like this)