The Sun.

19 May

I took her silk ponytail scarf and read, “Coach, what the heck you fashion addict girl,” and tied it around my neck.

She shouted, “You faggot! Tanggal la, jangan la pakai scarf i, malu la. I taknak jalan dengan you.”

I looked in the mirror and saw how old i was, how fat i was, and how uglier i was becoming and didn’t care about pimples or eye bags, and neither did i care much about the funny wrinkles that complemented my smile and sat at the corners of my eyes, when i tried to express fake contentment with my lips brought higher, and saw the little truth in the mirror.

It was fatigue, not aging, i thought in denial.

Oh the sun, i saw it from where i stood, smiling at me, and its face warmed up my skin, gave me life and aged me.

I walked closer to the windows, and let the strong wind and the bright sun to touch me, and didn’t care if tomorrow, i’d become a day older.

I’ll age for you, told the almost 29-year-old me, to a 34-year-old girl, who was snapping my pictures, and was also, a fashion addict.

I’ll age for you, old lady and sun.

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8 Responses to “The Sun.”

  1. Tan Yee Hou 19. May, 2009 at 7:36 am #

    hmm. did the 29 year old combine forces with the 34 year old?

  2. Myhorng 19. May, 2009 at 8:51 am #

    WTH with the last pic?

  3. Vernice 19. May, 2009 at 10:04 am #

    the 34 year old girl??? still a girl, I believe the almost 29 years old you had make her to a woman.

  4. Jannah Raffali 19. May, 2009 at 1:19 pm #

    Gorgeous scarf!

  5. Firdauz takes 5 19. May, 2009 at 5:02 pm #

    Tan Yee Hou : nooooo!!!! =P

    Myhorng : ahahahhaha. i like ugly pictures of me =P

    Vernice : controversial, ain’t it? age is, i mean. but well, i’d like to think that girl can also be used to refer to an adult female,

    Jannah Raffali : is it? eh, where are u right now yeah? penang or kl?

  6. Jannah Raffali 20. May, 2009 at 12:31 am #

    Still got some kursus to finish and BTN to go through. As well as waiting for posting placing. Hoping they won’t send me outside Semenanjung :)

  7. christock 20. May, 2009 at 4:04 am #

    can i has the scarf pls?

  8. Firdauz takes 5 20. May, 2009 at 1:16 pm #

    Jannah Raffali : but sabah/sarawak very nice, i’ve been to both places kan. i did my matriculation in sarawak and i loved it there. not bad la sabah/sarawak jannah. ok ok, lets hope u get in semenanjung then, hihi. let me know when ur in kl ok, then can lepak together.

    christock : ahahaha. kenot! but i think, i wanna buy one for myself, the colorful one, hohoho. =P

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