Maybe you don’t know

and maybe i’m not good at saying it. So i’ve been keeping it quiet for too long.

I love you, and i don’t think it’s within my rights to tell you what to do with your life. As long as your conscience tells you that it’s right for you to live the way that you do, fine with me.

I give you money, and lend some to you out of compasion — on human grounds i believe one shall eat. One shall not miss his meals.

But when you took my last note, and i’m left with less than 10 bucks, when the last time i gave you a few hundreds was only 2-3 days ago, how am i supposed to feel about that?

Tell me, did you care to know how much money i’m left with or is it all you care about is your choice of living : laid off forever and happy for eternity? In just 3 weeks, i gave you more than a thousand. MORE THAN A THOUSAND in 3 weeks yet you had no forethought and took my last note from my wallet for a Starbucks with a friend?

You’re a nice person, the nicest among all i’ve known. So many good things about you. I know for a certain you will share whatever you have with me. You wouldn’t even consider to do what i’m doing right now : complaining, disappointed, hopeless even.

You would be strong for me. You would even find every possible way to help.

But look, we’re 2 different people. You’re the nicer one. I’m the least. Not that i’m calculative about the money. Money aside, your bohemian lifestyle aside, but let’s consider one of the most basic things in every healthy relationship between people : mutual respect.

If you have that, you wouldn’t be taking my last note from my wallet for a Starbucks with a friend.

Have some thoughts on that. Not that i want you to change the lifestyle : laid off forever and happy for eternity. Not that i want you to find a steady income because i can’t provide, or your very old mother can’t provide. But i want you to respect other human beings.

Respect, especially the people who care about you. Don’t steal from them. Don’t take their money without their permission. And if you like your bohemian way of living, don’t cause the suffering of other people from it –psychologically or financially –, by having to provide you with the finance, and to figure out how to do it constantly — so you can live a happy bohemian lifestyle : laid off forever and happy for eternity.

Simple things, isn’t it?

You’re much older than i am, shouldn’t you know this already?