Sometimes,

in this life of mine, i really do not know what i need, or need to do.

So often, i give people what they demand for, and what they say they need. Login names, passwords, money, madness, my own freedom, reasons to hate me, sadness, virginity at least once, i gave them away, in hope that, i may learn a thing or two from doing so.

I never really learnt anything, actually.

Sometimes, it’s just so hard being alone and stupid. And during these silly times of mine, i’m often reminded of those good people and silly friends whom i may have hurt or lost contacts with.

One day when i actually learn a thing or two, i’ll bake a cake and share it with close friends and tell them, “hey, when you’re feeling dumb and lonely right, you let me know. I know what to do.”

I do not know what to do. I’m only 16, this year, my IQ is.